I got off early today....felt like a kid in a candy store......WOW...!!!!!
8 hrs is nothing to work......I felt like I was out of jail.....the days are so sunny and beautiful here ...the temp was hotter than it has been but the breeze was great...and as I started walking to Grant's circle...I found myself listening to a different playlist...one that I made a few months ago.....and drifting off to that neverland that I go to...the pat pat pat of these feet on the concrete...the beating of this heart in my ears...and the sweat rolling down my back reminded me ....I am not in the shape I want to be in.....I am struggling to lose a few pounds that I have put on since this time last year...in fact...I was worried because I was too thin.....putting this bod in a 2 is not healthy.......it is gross........I like muscles and healthy weight not that emaciated look......lol...don't have to worry about that now ....no sirreee.....................
I stretched and walked the last half mile......put me in the car.....went to the tanning bed....yea..I know..not healthy....go tell someone else....if this is the worst vice I have...well.....I am doing good.......I lay there listening to my ipod....one of my favorite songs came on...."somewhere over the rainbow."........Il Divo....they are a trio of tenors...and I am not sooo into that type of music but a while back a friend introduced me to their music..and this sounds soooo pure and good in my ears when I am laying down resting or falling asleep......the sound of those lyrics reminds me of another time....one that was good and easy...simple is the best word I can think to write...........
..............I hope that somewhere ...over the rainbow...you can hear me..and know...that we, indeed, did have the pot of gold......you taught me to love...and to look at life with a smile.....you showed me goodness in honesty and true sacrifice..........you gave me your heart.....you will always be with me.....no matter who I love....or where I go.....you will be there.....right here in this heart......forever...................your children look at me with your eyes or touch me with their hands and I am forever reminded that you are but a blink away....
...I seem to be the confidante.....the listener these days...it is weird to me...the way people have found the need to confide in me since you left.......I think that sometimes we expect things from the ones we love that we would never ask of a friend or acquaintance......I guess that is ok if the person is capable...but what if they are not...?????.....
I have tried to explain to others that most of the time people do not search out another person for intimate contact..and I don't mean physical.....to spite the one that they hold dear.....the reason is because they are missing some intricate piece of a puzzle that they may not be able to identify themselves.......it has nothing to do with the other person...just as I have found people that I needed in my life to push me over the mountain.....I know that it will never take you away from me........along with the others...the ones that have made their impressions on this soul......as I sit here writing and thinking of other days....it seems that finally I can see a better side to all of this......one that is hopeful and good.....I think you will be proud to have lived and loved me ...the others that have come into my life since you left....I think you will like them...they are good in their own way...
...well....
I cannot write sometimes without putting the serious side forward....
just don't read it if it is all too corny......it is all mine..and I do not care if anyone reads or not........
song of the day.....somewhere over the rainbow....
word of the day....peace......a state of tranquility or quiet...
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