....dot dot dot...that is my motto ....I have been doing this for a long time now...almost four years..this dumping of my thoughts ......it has been a place to throw it after wearing out friends and family with my own philosophy about my life or just life in general....I am going to apologize for this right now since I know that some might want to roll their eyes.....so if you begin to read and it seems ridiculous to you....just delete it or move on..... I am just one more person doing this blog thing....
lately, I have been a sounding board for the docs and nurses at work and my friends......I am not sure why that is...except sometimes I guess people assume I have lived life and may know a few things about it....or maybe they just need an ear for a minute...lol.....anyway...I say that NOT because I do know so much about life...but because it is probably that I realize more and more how insignificant I can be in the big scheme....and that really I am just learning.........and that is the humbling attribute in all of the things I may say here.........
....i have just begun to live life .....you might say I am 4 yrs old.... :-)...not a bad thing just different......I am sitting here eating some hershey's kissables ...just finished a cup of coffee I am planning to do some cooking for my boys and I want it to clear up a little so I can go for a run...may be why I feel the need to do this......I am not working today...it has been strangely busy there...strange because we have had a succession of fetal demises ....those are so sad and depressing ....and most of us spend our time trying to console and keep our pts comfortable and doctors informed of things that can become really touchy when feelings are pretty raw.....
it is unusual for us to have so much of this...and I wonder if a study has ever been done to find out the percentage of inutero fetal deaths that occur during certain seasons or weather changes....it would be interesting to know.....not sure what you could do with that info...
the other factor in all of this is to keep ourselves from being so involved that we do not disable ourselves from being caretakers...since that IS our job......I am sure there are times when our sick sense of humor may be insulting to people on the outside but it sure does lighten the mood when we all know that we would hate for this to be happening to our sister or mother or ourselves......anyway.....send your prayers to Him for all those women out there dealing with a very private sad moment in their lives.....
Life keeps bending and turning like the roads I walk and run.......I wonder at changes that seem to be coming like a train running over the tracks that have been laid out to a destination I do not know...............children are growing .....adults that I have thought I knew for so long are changing.....thoughts are not the same that I never would have believed would change....
priorities have shifted .......life is different...... full of changes good and bad.....
never made it outside .....but the road is always there....p
song of the day.....Bless the Broken Road....Rascal Flatts
1 comment:
Hey Patti,
When I worked at Woman's Hospital, it always seemed like the fetal demises happened in groups of two or three or four. And then we wouldn't have any for a while. That was the sadest part about working there.
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