I am trying to stay busy....moving my way on down the road...I have a new motivation to run....maybe it is more of the same...but I think it helps me to focus on something besides me or you......I have a desire to be more than just words ....I want to do things...and I have found that I can live....even if it is not what I want....sometimes things just are...you know?....and what is the reason....no one knows......I try to remember I am not alone....those words said to me so many times.....but then I find myself alone not in a room or the house...but with people....like a square peg in a round hole....doesn't fit....I am ok....I make it ok for us all..but the whole time.....I feel awkward and I want to hide somewhere because I am just here....I don't feel useful..and yet..sometimes now I know that I am more useful than I have been in a long time.....I can make no decision about this life....where what and how do i want to live....I have searched for the answer to that so many times I don't like to think of the it...and so....
I move......and move and move....and I keep on moving....and that is all i know....
I feel the Earth move.....song of the day....
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