Rusty Eddie.....

I have you on my mind.....this youngest son of mine.....the nurse that I worked with in the nursery named him 'rusty eddie' because I couldn't think of the name I wanted....I had about 5 and I kept waffling between all of them....so she took it upon herself to name him because he had this wild reddish hair when he was born.........and so you know, it is Russell Edward...we call him Rusty or Russ, a good name...suitable for him, anyway.............

when he was just a day or two...I had him all figured out ...I thought....he had me figured out, too.........He is a lot like me....with some good traits from his dad mixed in.............He has these gray green eyes that can be blue or green depending on the day and the colors he wears.....he laughs at himself the way I do........he enjoys attention...and he loves his brother and he loves me, too....

as a little boy he would not sleep in his bed....always getting up to try to get in mine....but I was as stubborn as he was and I refused to let him into our bed...we needed our rest and he needed to learn to put himself to sleep...it is a basic fundamental skill that all have to master......before you think I was terribly mean....i allowed early morning time....just not all of the time ....I slept many many .....well...I slept beside his toddler bed from the time he was 9 months til he was 3.....I thought I would shoot myself or him before the time came for him to finally sleep on his own............

Ron's grandmother decided to give us her metal bed frame...Ron spent a weekend painting and sanding the thing til he had it a perfect shade of red....I pasted a 3 yr old appropriate border on the walls....and put a bright comforter on the bed...and TADA.....instant success.....HIS bed...that is what he said...and forever after....he slept in HIS bed.....and I never had to sleep on the floor again.......

I am doing my best to prepare them for the life to come....sometimes, I am not prepared for it either...but I do know there is strength in me....some of it I never knew I had................


Rusty, I hope that one day you can know how much I love you.....p

SOng of the day....MY WISH...rascal flatts