well...it has been a while..and I am writing now...not because I have run...cause I haven't...but because this blogging thing has been something I have done now for the last four years..and I have missed it......sometimes it has been one of my better friends...at least ....it is here..and for sure cannot disappoint.....that sounds terribly morose..and I am happy to say I have not been that way so much lately.....
Christmas is sneaking up on me...and I am trying to get a few things ready for my family......the tree is up...the wreath is on the door....and a few of my glittery Christmas trees are sitting around....and baby Jesus is on the table in the living room.....the other one that my mom made and holds a special place in this heart is sitting in the cabinet waiting for me to get some greenery around him...or take him to my friend the florist and get her to fix him up......she has done that for several years.......He reminds me of why I am doing all of this stuff..........
I made some pumpkin spice muffins for my boys and iced them with cream cheese icing......all needed to keep these boys happy is feed them and hand them some money every so often.........they are preparing for the end of the school semester ....my oldest is watching this year fly by..and so am I....he continues to amaze me and for all of his young years he has been a rock sometimes when I have needed it............I have worried about the perils of college life and the things that he has yet to face.....but at least there is a good strong sense of himself and sometimes I have underestimated that.........mothers everywhere worry I suppose......that is part of our job, isn't it..?.......................
I have worked a lot lately.....babies keep coming into the world...one of those things in this life that i can count on...........most of the time I am hardened by the usual routine of what we do....but there are those times when I am amazed and reminded of the miracle of it all............you never know how much faith you have sometimes.....I am surprised when I am struggling to help a patient or managing a difficult family how I am talking to God and I do not even realize it......He has always come thro at those times.......I am not writing this for an impression....I guess it is just amazing to me...since i do not consider myself an overly religious person....I just know that there is a presence within me that has always been there.....and I call Him God.........He has followed me thro all of these hills and valleys and I continue to recognize Him even when i do not want to look His way....I think that He is who I talk to when I am running ...Him and a few others that will always remain here in this head and heart........... I have missed the run more than I can say......
One of the docs at work keeps asking me about running ...he is wanting to get back into it...and I may just get him to go with me soon........I have given him all the info about training for a marathon and half marathon........and I want to tell him....it is not the training that is going to help him to succeed...it is the doing of it......maybe I am saying that to me...since I am missing it .......everytime I question my own running...I realize that usually I am doing much better than I see ......isn't that always the way.......
I am going to get going tomorrow and try to get me on the road.....I hate that I am starting from ground zero again.......but...that is the way of it....and there is nothing to do except ....DO IT!
to all of you...keep on running ....
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