Later in the day than I need to be up...but I cannot rest yet....thinking of all the day has brought to me......work was good...I love my job...there are times when I get sick of the people stuff...if you know what I mean...but the actual job is good..... .... there is still nothing like standing in a room with 5 people...and suddenly...there is one more person to add to the count.....
you know..what I am going to say..don't you?.....this little boy.....came into this world in the usual fashion.....slowly presenting himself.....he is shown to his mom for that first look ....it's been a long nine months.......worthwhile tho'....the hands are too large for this 6lb. 15 oz boy.....they are reaching ....and reaching..... ......it is as I have said before........we are all reaching for something....we come into this world with our arms extended..............
.he is wrapped and checked in the usual way......then presented to his mom for inspection........the warm brown eyes that examine him gently.....are the eyes of love....and I feel privileged to be here now......his father is standing in the background studying it all quietly......and we are bustling here and there...doing our jobs.....as i look back...I wonder what he thought.......he is not forthcoming...and I know that I will just have to wonder......
I need to run....if I could have gone at 9...i would have......I am tired but unwilling to rest.........the day has been filled.......and I know that I am just waiting to fall into the bed and sleep for a while...but not yet..........
for some reason today...i have watched the people I have worked with ...their expressions as they talk......the docs with their commanding presence their sharp minds examining and occasionally a glimpse of the people that they are.....gently touching another human....patients and nurses..........the nurses scurrying around to please....the patients wrapped up in their own world of pain or joy.........trying to get thro another day or month of this 'state' called pregnancy......and the babies who have cried as they find themselves in a new place.....definitely not as warm as they have been accustomed to......an active observer...that is me..............
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I hope to run tomorrow...me and the music and the lake and the winding road............I don't know why I am doing this now...except I needed to run my mouth..and the boys are asleep...and I have notes for chores to finish ........and people to talk with about one thing or another.............I am slowing down for that final evening rest......
word of the day......beginning...
song of the day......the first time ever i saw your face....celine dion
the first time ever i saw your face...i thought the sun rose in your eyes.....
and the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave......
....greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for a friend.....John 15:13......
patti
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